it is the time of the year again where we look back and try to reminisce on the past events and also a time for us to make a new year resolution. it took me quite a while to actually sit down and write this entry. sometimes when i write, i need that feeling and mood. once it is there, i can write non-stop.
this year, i have grown up, not much but a bit more.
my only sister gave birth to juston on 17 september 2008. that was such a happy moment in both families. he brings so much joy and happiness to the families. my parents' first grandchild and my first nephew. i am officially an uncle 大舅. he has grown up so much in 3 months' time and we have heard much of his laughter and crying too!
in that very same month, mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. it was such a life-changing event in the family. being the eldest son and the only son at home (my younger brother is in perth), i suddenly felt so stressful and so much burden was placed on me. to be honest, i was scared and in fear. i had to show my support to mom and could not even showed a single negativity at home. from mom's condition, i started reading up on materials and articles about breast cancer, i learn about breast cancer together with mom, i give her encouragement, i show her my support, i go with her to see doctors and the oncologist, i listen to doctors' explanation for her, i ask questions for her, everything i do, i do it for her.
there was one time when we met up with an oncologist, i was sitting in front of the doctor's table. i almost burst into tears when the oncologist examined mom's mastectomy wound. sitting there was the woman who had breast-fed me when i was a baby; now she has lost one of her breasts, the proud poccession of women. she suddenly looked so fragile and small to me.
i can personally feel that my relationship with mom is closer than before. i am always closer with her compared to dad, but this event has made us even closer. i see this as a blessing in disguise. everything must have happened for a reason, and most of the time, we do not know or understand the reason, at all.
this year, i have grown up, not much but a bit more.
my only sister gave birth to juston on 17 september 2008. that was such a happy moment in both families. he brings so much joy and happiness to the families. my parents' first grandchild and my first nephew. i am officially an uncle 大舅. he has grown up so much in 3 months' time and we have heard much of his laughter and crying too!
in that very same month, mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. it was such a life-changing event in the family. being the eldest son and the only son at home (my younger brother is in perth), i suddenly felt so stressful and so much burden was placed on me. to be honest, i was scared and in fear. i had to show my support to mom and could not even showed a single negativity at home. from mom's condition, i started reading up on materials and articles about breast cancer, i learn about breast cancer together with mom, i give her encouragement, i show her my support, i go with her to see doctors and the oncologist, i listen to doctors' explanation for her, i ask questions for her, everything i do, i do it for her.
there was one time when we met up with an oncologist, i was sitting in front of the doctor's table. i almost burst into tears when the oncologist examined mom's mastectomy wound. sitting there was the woman who had breast-fed me when i was a baby; now she has lost one of her breasts, the proud poccession of women. she suddenly looked so fragile and small to me.
i can personally feel that my relationship with mom is closer than before. i am always closer with her compared to dad, but this event has made us even closer. i see this as a blessing in disguise. everything must have happened for a reason, and most of the time, we do not know or understand the reason, at all.
in the new year to come, my hope and wish is for the good health and love and peace in the family. may God's love and blessings be with our family, now and always.
to all my friends who are reading this entry, wishing you all a blessed and healthy new year, and be blessed with God's love and wisdom always.
to all my friends who are reading this entry, wishing you all a blessed and healthy new year, and be blessed with God's love and wisdom always.
with love,
leslie
I'm so proud of you, my dear. You take good care of mom, I'm sure everything will be fine & better. Happy New Year to you & your family.
ReplyDeleteLove, Wan Yee
"this year, i have grown up, not much but a bit more. - Leslie"
ReplyDeleteThere are some people who never seem to grow up :-P myself for example; sometimes can be so childish!
My friend, God gives us tests to make us stronger and to make us think more of Him. Let's pray for your mom's health & well being. The rest let's leave it to Him; for God is most merciful.
Well, have a blessed new year ahead ya.
-KeLLeR-
I don't know what to say except that life is never easy and sometimes we get things thrown at us out of the blue.....only time and support from loved ones will help pull us through...It's all in His hands....sometimes we human need to remember that....
ReplyDeleteAll the best Leslie and let's live life without fear....Happy 2009
Ciaklat
wazzup Leslie,
ReplyDeletemaybe I can borrow u my favorite word of wisdom, "Every dark cloud has a silver lining, U should never feel hopeless coz' difficult times always lead to better days."
It is such a blessing about this thing we call life. It comes with uncertainties, confusion, and sadness.
However, even though most things change rapidly, we always can have faith in the fact that the sun isn't far behind.
I'm sure even Santa would love to have u left his lap happier than when u came.